Be Still....

"Be Still and Know that I am God", Psalm 46:10. 8 years ago I was in a small group with church and we examined this verse. We emphasized each word individually and then examined what that phrase meant with that word emphasized. For example, the first time through you emphasize BE Still and know that I am God. Which in my mind means just be. No pretending... just BE. Now say the verse and emphasize Still. Be STILL and know that I am God. To me that means quiet..... motionless.... You keep going through each word like that until the end of the verse. Over the last 8 years this verse has come to my mind many many times. Sometimes when I am pretending to be someone I am not this verse comes to my mind and I emphasize the Be. God is telling me to just be. Sometimes when I doubt God's presence this verse comes to mind and I emphasize KNOW. Be still and KNOW that I am God. Today this verse came to my mind many many times with emphasize on STILL. I had the truck today so I had a long list of errands I needed to get done. Jeff was home today so he went with me. (I am not sure he really knew what he was in for). I hurried and ran Ashlie's clarinet to the shop so it can get repaired before Saturday's competition. Then we went to get the oil changed on the truck since the coupon I had was good for only today. They said it was only going to take 1 hr to 1 1/2 hrs. It was close to lunch so Jeff and I decided to leave the truck and get a bite to eat. We arrived back at the shop a little over an hour later. 2 1/2 hours later we FINALLY were out of there. A total of 3 1/2 hours to get our oil changed. Thank goodness the babies were being good. The whole time I was sitting there everything I needed to get done kept going through my mind. Every time I went through the list in my mind I am sure I added 10 more things I needed to get done. Needless to say I was not very happy. Throughout the 3 1/2 hours sitting there this verse kept going through my mind. The more it went through my mind the more irritated I got with God. What do you mean be STILL? I have too many things to get done to be STILL!!!! For our anniversary yesterday I gave Jeff a Christian music CD. It was playing in the deck when we FINALLY got into the Truck. I was even so irritated with it I wanted to shut it off. I ran around the next 2 hours frantically trying to still get all my errands done. Now that I sit here late at night in the quiet of home thinking about the day and writing my blog I wonder what I missed today. What was I suppose to be STILL about? What was God trying to tell me that I ignored?? Jeff normally would have worked today so did it have to do with spending time with Jeff even though it was in the lobby while getting our oil changed?? You know some days I wish God would just give me written instructions. Or at least put it on my to do list so whatever I am suppose to being doing or learning that day is right there in front of me. This I do know though... God is patient and whatever I was suppose to be STILL about today he will try again and again and again until I get it. I thank God for that!!!