My Journey

There is a blog I read regularly because the lady gives me inspiration. She is so creative and can make the dullest of subjects sound so exciting. Over the Christmas break she wasn't posting. Now I THINK this lady would remember me. We went to church together back in Idaho but never really talked to each other. I was desperately needing her inspiration over Holidays. She finally made a post the other day that spoke right to my heart. It was an honest heartfelt post that said "I've been back and forth with it, constantly cycling between a silent panic or a vague sense of despair or a chin-up confidence about the whole thing. I end up panicky more than I care to admit" Not that I have been panicing, but have been back and forth between a vague sense of despair and a chin-up confidence the last few weeks. I decided a few weeks ago 2009 is going to be my year!!!! ..... If it kills me.... God Damit!!!! Ok well I really didn't say that, but I am very very serious about making so many changes in my life. 1st on my agenda is my depressive, feeling lonely, don't have friends, whoa is me attitude. The cure: Get my butt up and meet, meet, meet people. Be active... have fun!!!! So off I went...then cycled around feeling a little overwhelmed about everything I was getting myself involved in. But now I have cycled back around to... 2009 is going to be my Year!!!

So here is what I have gotten myself into
Monday and Tuesday's I watch a 6 month old baby. LOVE HIM!!! He is so great. I look forward to him being here. These are my days that I just sit back and focus on Caitlynn, Dalton, and the baby. No worrying about bills, no sitting at the computer for hours on end and walking away with absolutely nothing accomplished, no laundry.... just babies

Wednesday I just joined a group called 90 day jumpstart to a new you. Yes I did actually join it. This Wednesday will be my first meeting. This is already amazing. I feel God has really been calling my name on this one. I'll try to blog more about it in the next couple of days. (Maybe after my first meeting)

Thursday or Friday of every week Caitlynn, Dalton and me go to a mommy's playgroup. Last week was our first week. We met at a ladies house with about 10 other women who all had 17-24 month olds. How did that go??? Well that is another post. Let's just say it was interesting and I survived. This week we are going to a wee gym where Caitlynn and Dalton can play on gym equipment. I can't wait to see how much fun they have.

Beyond this I just sent my application in to volunteer for the Apple Blossom Festival this year. For those of you familiar with Idaho it sounds like it is alot like the River Festival. It is a HUGE HUGE event for this area. We have about 20,000 people in this town and I think I heard during this 4 day event there will be 200,000 people here.

I just had my name put on the sub list for 2 bunco's going on in our neighborhood. I am only on the sub list but could become permanent. I went last week to one. It was great to see some of the people I haven't seen in a few months. Definitely made some contacts for my business. Which leads me to my next topic.

I have also been working very hard on my business. I really really want this to be a viable source of income for my family. I totally believe in the products and the business. Just really struggling right now getting the shows. I am not allowed to post the name of the business on this website, but I believe everyone knows what I am doing. Really could use some prayers, words of encourage, referrals, orders, shows.... anything you want to send my way would be greatly appreciated.

My hope in all of this??? To become a better women, wife, mother, friend, daughter, sister and of course... a better child of God. I hope you will indulge me while I blog about this journey. And if you are taking a similar journey this year... May we be an inspiration to each other. You have my e-mail. Let's get together.